So I’m obviously a pretty big Cheryl Cole fan and when I got this as a present for Christmas I was more than a little excited about reading it. I actually had a different book in mind to read after Lover Reborn but I just picked this up to skim through it for a few minutes and ended up being glued to it for a few days until I finished it.
It starts off with Cheryl telling us about her early life in a council estate in Newcastle. She really had a tough upbringing and didn’t have an easy rise to fame at all. In her early years she had to deal with the break up of her parents and the discovery that her older siblings were actually only half-brothers and sisters as they had a different father to her. Although this affected her, obviously, she was more affected by the actions of her older brother Andrew who was involved from an early age in drugs and related crimes. He made their home a scary place for a while and she carried this fear into her adulthood.
Anyone who is in any way interested or intrigued by Cheryl would probably be most interested in her relationship with Ashley Cole, the footballer who she married and who subsequently broke her heart what seems like multiple times. She doesn’t hold back in giving the true details of the events that took place throughout her marriage and even though we see how much Ashley hurts her by cheating on her and not being trustworthy in general we also see how much they seemed to be a genuine couple in love through most of their relationship. It’s actually quite sad to see because you feel that if only Ashley could have kept his d*ck in his pants they would have had a long and happy life together but there you go. The only consolation is if Cheryl can’t make a man stay faithful there’s never any need for any woman on the planet to worry it was somehow her fault if their man strays. If they’re a cheater they’re going to cheat. Regardless.
It was really interesting reading to see her journey and rise to fame through her eyes also. She seems to be a person that a lot of people, famous and not, take a shine to. Simon Cowell seems to have been just bowled over by her and couldn’t seem to resist her charms. Also Derek Hough, who she seems to have a lovely sweet relationship with, was just completely smitten with her. She never really clarifies whether they had a romantic relationship or not and a part of me wonders is he gay and just doesn’t want to come out.
The part I found most surprising was the trouble that she had with the paparazzi and the newspapers writing lies about her. I suppose I just never put myself in her shoes and thought that as someone who was famous for a good few years before the revelations about Ashley came out that she would somehow be immune to the hardships of bad publicity but clearly she isn’t and never will be. She really struggled with depression and anxiety throughout the break up of her marriage and as I, myself have suffered with anxiety in the past, I can’t imagine doing that with the whole world watching. It just sounds horrific.
All in all I feel like Cheryl is someone who has had a tough early life but has been both extremely lucky and unlucky with how her life has panned out. It just goes to show you can have the money, the fame, the looks and the life but it all means nothing if you haven’t someone you love to share it with.